An year has passed… an year with you in our lives. Last November you were in my arms, too small that I had to hold you so carefully, it was so difficult for me to breast feed you and today you are sitting alone on the bed and nibbling away a biscuit. On the third day you were born, I was still finding it difficult to
breastfeed you. The nurses were scolding “Why are you not holding him properly”. Your Acha still pulls my leg telling, how I cried hugging you tight and said “Oh my baby, you are a new born and I am a new mother, we both have to learn.”
And we learnt together. Every day was a day of discovery, of new emotions.
From the first time you smiled to today when you are laughing out loud blinking your eyes ;
From your first cry to the shriek you gave when we just took away the dirty shoe you were going to eat ;
From breast milk to the parippum chorum (rice and dal) you had today;
From your first black poop to the pampers full of shit we just put in the bin ;
From the first see through cotton dress you wore to the kurta – pajama you are wearing now ;
From the first day you flipped on your tummy to today when you are trying to stand on your own ;
From the rattles you shook with your hands to the toy car you are trying to drive today;
From the first sound you made to nonstop blabbering you are doing now;
From your toothless smile to the 4 sharp teeth with which you bite us whenever possible;
From drinking out of a feeding bottle to the straw sippy bottle ;
From crying at small sounds to enjoying fire crackers on Diwali ;
From the day you first crawled on your knees to today when you are keeping small steps holding the bed ;
From the smile and attention you gave to the music from your toy to the way you shook your hands and head in tune to Gangnam Style beats ;
From crying on leaving at the baby sitter’s to the silent acceptance that your Amma have to leave you there even if you cry ;
You have come a long way. (Darling tu pehle se kitna badal gaya 🙂 )
Its not that the last one year was a walk on cake. There were struggles, both emotional and physical. There were times you took away our sleep, we got tired, anxious and sometimes at our wit’s end. But then the joy your innocent smile gives us can wash away all those pains.
You may not understand yet why Amma and Acha have decorated the house today with balloons and colours, why Amma held you in her arms and blew a candle on the cake, why Acha made you cut a cake and offered a piece for you to have, why your little friends have gathered in the room and clapped hands and sang “Happy Birthday to you”; But darling you would understand in years to come that we were celebrating the day you came into our life, you would understand how much you mean to us, how much you have changed us and our lives.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LITTLE ONE”
PS : My sunshine celebrated his first birthday yesterday – 25/11/2012.